WORD PLAY

hello yellow bloggie folks! (wait, that sounds weird ya? whatevr) :p this is been uber longest time since my last posting, my real writing I mean. well, I've been busy with stuffs u know, like thesis.. and ummm thesis, and yeah mostly thesis. HA HA another weird expression. yeah, for a senior year college-er like me, it gotta be the most scaryyyy thing for us rite now. starts with T ends with S. fuckin thesis. well, yeah ofcourse I'm not gonna talk abt that to be exacccct, cause just talkin abt it makes me yawning couple times! disaster !! :s 

u know, I got inspirations to write on my blog mostly bcs I've been thinking harrrd abt something, or just things that I found when I browsed on the Internet during my ultimate spare and unemployed time. well, u see..I've been thinking and asking to myself, who are you? I mean, like who are you exactly? stuffs like what that mostly define me as a person. like stuffs I like, songs I listened to, people I admired, movie that I loved to watched over and over again, friends that I trust, friends that I hate, guys that I'd like to be my man someday, boys that I want to toss into a garbage can, yeah you know stuffs like that. cud things like that define and described u best a person? as a single alive person? 

Well starts with me, I love things with lace..u know beautiful lace. I found that I like stuffs with a touch of girly. well, not to mention that I am a girl. but part of a girly in me, lets say 80% more than boyish part of me. so, I'm not sayin that I'm addicted to pink, but see colors like pink, baby yellow, earth-tone, light grey, soft pink, shocking pink..somehow made me happy :) Yes, and I love movies that have a LOT of crying scenes, romantic-casual dialogue, yeah stuffs like that. my friends always said that I'm ALWAYS CRIED watched anykind of movies. I'm not sayin that I'm over sensitive but, I got touched easily, and ends up crying. I'm gonna keep goin on, I do not own any sneakers, keds :$ I got one actually, for running. but that doesnt count, rite? actually I wanna hv one, but I dunno, I found it that I looked 'not rite' when I wear shoes like that. but actually I love seein girls wearing sneakers, they looked cool. but do I hv to own one in order to be 'looked cool'? and not bcs I really really want it? I like wearing simple flats shoes, I like shoes with a little ribbon on the edge of it, or maybe cute wedges and clogs.

I like wearing jeans, skinny one. but I love wearing skirts too, cute simple skirts. I mostly hv a mini skirts, since I got troubles with height (I'm not those tall girls on the ANTM), so wearing mini one helps me looked not too small :p I love mini dress, I love wearing watch all the time with some bracelet to match with it. I like to wear anykind of rings too, helps me looked appropriate when I'm runnin out of accecories :) 

I love listened to indie bands, sometimes I love when the bands are somehow indie or not too many ppl recognized them yet.. HAHA I dunno. I love anything abt ballet, I learned since I was 6 or so, but then I stopped when I was in junior hi, and now I'm into jazz ballet stuff. I love to dance, bottom line. 

and what I lovvvve the most, is I love spending time alone. like goin to the mall or places with my self only. I feel so mucccch relaxing when I dont hv to go with anybody and went to places I love. I like silenceee, thats a bliss for me!

Well, I dunno, but define who u are from what ur like and dislike feels sooooooooo much liberating. u shud try it. sometimes, u didnt know what u like, till someone told u so, and u admit it.. I went a LOT of things, whether it good or bad, but mostly bad things made me who I am today. Bad memories haunted me like everytime when I'm not aware of it, but it helps me to think and do better for my future, rite? sometimes, I regret of what I did, but then again, I'm not. bcs if I didnt do what I did in my past, I'd be totally not becoming who I am rite now, the better version of myself. 

Friends stayed and some of  'em leave.. Guys came and then left.. mom warned and still hug me when I'm wrong. thats when I found that family define u the best. I learned a LOT from my mom, my dad and my brothers. they arent saints! they made mistakes, sins, bad things but they went thru it perfectly. I am who I am today, bcs of em. bcs of home. bcs of their love.and yes, bcs of my friends too........and my pasts.

I took decisions, actions and words towards what I face its bcs I got sense. some of us taught differently, bcs we got different parents, environment, religions, stuffs like that. I did what I did is bcs I wanted to, theres no pressure. everybody cud said that is a right way, or wrong. but, in the end it is u who has the responsibility to face and solve everything that ever happened to u !. so be brave, take a chance!

I am not a brave girl, I wasnt and I am not. but, I am ready for every possibilities that awaits me.

I just followed whats in my heart, and what I believed is right. I love flats more than sneakers, is that mean that I look girls with sneakers are freak? of course not! I just love flats and wedges and clogs more bcs it feels right to me. Same with stuffs like pink, simple, romantic sayings, crying scene in movies, hug and kiss, skirts, minidress, tinkerbell............and stuffffffffffsss :)))