i am pretty blown by the medium-wind fluttering on the top of my skin. kinda cold, but i survived :p its sort of soothing here, i just realized now for i've been living in this house for about 22yrs old. i know riteee haha thats silly. sooo.. i kinda doze off earlier for about 2 hours and woke up in fresh condition. and i dont know where it hits me, but i am feeling to write rite now.

so, yeah of course i wouldnt wanna talk about my unemployment phase. because i am trying to work my ass off to be able get out of that phase :p guess i just wanna talk about............the absence of my intimate relationship with man rite now haha yea i know thats stupid. but i feel like to share a bit.

i know that i've been practically single and alone for a quite long time, but to be honest i didnt feel any kind of loneliness at all. i mean cmon, i have lots of great friends surrounds me, well not most of the time. but at least when i feel like to hang out, they were there. but i know that sometimes my mum and brothers think i kinda "pathetic" girl who cudnt handle her love life well. i know that my mum kinda worried that i am sort of...hving a hard time finding the right guy. well, doesnt evryone deal with that too?

i am 100% believe that, my mum dad n brothers think i am sort of a sassy n too picky girl when it comes to guys. believe me, i am not. it hits me the most when my auntie said that i def being too picky which i believe that i dont do that picky kinda stuff. how cudddd, b/c my exes r totally casual regular guys. u know, no high class or anything. i just dont feel theres any eligible single guy whos rite for me rite now. n u cudnt rush to it rite? i am now 22yrs old, and i dont feel like to waste my time for some sort of 'playing' relationship with guys.but its not that i too serious too, its just u knowww  i want to be in an serious yet comfy with the right guy kinda relationship. 

probably this owl city tunes that i set on the playlist is the main factor why on earth rite now i being so sensitive n mellow. yuck.. haha but thats fine, u gotta say what u gotta say rite? (-:

i know maybe maybe maybe..ur tummy wud got tickling when i said that i'm sort of girl who still believe that my prince charming wud come someday somewhere. yes i still do believe in that. its quite surreal how i still have in faith in such thing like that, but here i am. cause hey, who do u want to spend the rest of ur life with, except ur very own verse of prince charming. am i rite peopleee? (-:

have u ever feel that 'somethings wrong with me or what?' cause u still remain single till now? well yeah, sometimes i do questioned that kinda stuff to my self, somewhere between conscious and sleeping. am i being too picky? am i not good enuff? am i not pretty enough? am i not knowledgeable enough? or what? its just some random thoughts that only crossed into my mind once in a while tho. and no, i didnt found the answer..